Tiered of thinking

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Phrin Vernon RVN — Tue, 14 Sep 2010 22:16:57 GMT

Depression is an awful thing, and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy

I have been through hell and back, and then some again with it, and am still struggling.

Its hard to put your trust in a health professional when you feel that way - even harder if they, or their receptionists are 'off' with you - I sympathise

I'm not being very eloquent, but to put it in a nutshell, I have been there, I know it is HELL, I wish you all the best, and please do PM me

Also, as Caro said, the Samaritans are GREAT - I have used them many times

((((((((((hugs)))))))))

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zalenski81 — Mon, 13 Sep 2010 17:14:17 GMT

[quote user="Anonymous"] i took the prescription but can't understand that these tablets are meant to help. I got referred to the community mental health team but when i finally got to top of waiting list, i phoned to arrange meetings and they were assertive, unwelcoming and harsh on the phone so i said sorry for being a nuisance so they just let me go, which then brings back the feelings of not being worth helping. I get so paranoid that i left boots in tears a month ago because the make up assistant was very helpful to the girl before me but when i asked for advice she wasn't cheerful or friendly. I feel people take one look at me and hate me and don't think im worthy of pleasantness.[/quote]

You ARE worth pleasantness and helping, you are a wonderful person and you deserve happiness in your life. Take a friend or someone close to you with you to boost your confidance whenever you are dealing with these people, don't forget that sometimes these people are going through things of their own which I know doesn't exactley help you but it might give you an insight about their behaviour.

Believe in yourself and others will soon follow suit

Many many hugs and happy karmic vibes coming your way

xxxxxx

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Leanne Tyreman-Guest — Fri, 06 Aug 2010 11:55:14 GMT

Just a quick message of support to you, it is really awful losing a pet, i have recently lost my oldest horse, and it hurts like hell, i have got health issues which make me depressed presently, so you really are not on your own, but please let us all help you on here, I have found some amazing friends on here and found so much support in them, they are a great bunch!!

PM me or any of the other guys whenever, if you are on facebook feel free to add me and contact that way too if you want, then you can keep in touch that way!!

just for you chick, we are always here for you, NEVER forget that. xxxxxxxxx

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Mac Feather — Wed, 04 Aug 2010 09:59:51 GMT

[quote user="Bailey Lewis"]harsh on the phone [/quote]

I had a similar experience and it floored me- I did eventually make a complaint. I think in our job we spend alot of time being helpful, pleasant and decent with people and its extra awful when we experience less than decent treatment in our dealings with people.

[quote user="Bailey Lewis"]loneliness of being like this is[/quote]

I can relate to this too- I still to a point feel like this, partly due to my lifestyle, havent really made alot of friends in this area. I still miss certain people I used to work with- I count you and Sandra in that group.

You are most definately worthy of good things, you are lovely, caring, funny, intelligent and definately good craic! Dont know about you but Im still chuckling at The Rockness memories!

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Shelly vn — Wed, 04 Aug 2010 08:27:55 GMT

Sending you loads of hugs xxxx I really hope that a new doctor is a bit more helpful, i know from experience that talking things through with a councillor can help.

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Catherine Raymond — Tue, 03 Aug 2010 21:10:10 GMT

I've been on anti depressants for a very long time, with a change of drug about three years ago. I had tried counselling, herbal remedies, various therapies but none that worked for me. It's different for everyone, but please change your doc and see what they say.

It took what seemed ages after I had my little collie x lurcher put to sleep to feel some sort of normal. Felt like nobody understood what I was going through. I ended up on sleeping tabs, and felt useless.If I couldn't save my own dog that what sort of nurse was I? Sounds stupid, but that was what I felt. At the time I was in a very very dark place. Thankfully my doctor was wonderful and listened that I was crying all the time and putting on a face to other people and then as soon as the door was closed just breaking up.

Please please please don't go the same dark place I ended up. Please see another doctor, talk to the wonderful people here that know the stresses that our job has on us. You have lots of friends sending you cyber hugs and I hope you take the offers you have to meet up and chat. If you can't face that then write everything down so you are not storing it inside. Something has to explode if you do that and I promise you, that is something you don't want to happen.

Lots of love and hugs

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Steph Phillips — Tue, 03 Aug 2010 20:43:34 GMT

hope you feel better asap!!! xxxxxx

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Steph Worsley — Tue, 03 Aug 2010 20:33:31 GMT

hey sorry to hear how you are feeling, I agree take Sandra up on her offer of meeting up, speak to a different doctor, there are other anti-d's out there, having been on them on and off for 7 years now i see the benefits and the bad points about them, as Cxaro says the support team sound pants (personally never gone for counselling as i cant talk about myself, but know that there are great advantages if yoyu can!!!)

huge hugs, we are all around for you when you need/want us xxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Caro Laithwaite VN — Tue, 03 Aug 2010 20:19:29 GMT

Samaratins are great l have used them a fair bit recently. In the early hours is when l use them you can sit and howl down the line. If you can not get through on the main line check out the website and try different local ones around the country. You do not have to be in their area.

You crisis team sound tossers my Mums have been brill and good that you are changing your gp.

PM sent

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Anonymous — Tue, 03 Aug 2010 19:32:12 GMT

Hi, Thanks for all the support, it means alot to know that people do care. Its hard as i have been depressed before and antidepressants didn't work for me, i was just handed a prescription and sent on my way with no offer of councilling so i went away feeling like i wasn't worth any help. I didn't tell anyone at all i was on the meds and lied when my mum found them. I had terrible side effects and then started thinking how can this tablet change my mind? It can't change the things that made my mind so fragile so i stopped taking them. That was 5years ago and although i still had same probs i somehow managed to cope. Now it seems like its hit me 10 times as hard and i feel like a failure for going through it again. I suffer night terrors which i know is a result of my feeings and i became scared of sleep for a while. I got sedatives from my gp, she asked me outright " are you depressed again?" the abruptness of her questioning made me burst into tears which answered her question, i took the prescription but can't understand that these tablets are meant to help. I got referred to the community mental health team but when i finally got to top of waiting list, i phoned to arrange meetings and they were assertive, unwelcoming and harsh on the phone so i said sorry for being a nuisance so they just let me go, which then brings back the feelings of not being worth helping. I get so paranoid that i left boots in tears a month ago because the make up assistant was very helpful to the girl before me but when i asked for advice she wasn't cheerful or friendly. I feel people take one look at me and hate me and don't think im worthy of pleasantness.

I am going to change gp and hope they can help. Admitting these feelings has helped, the isolation and loneliness of being like this is, is almost worse than the issues themselves. thankyou all again for helping me feel welcome to speak.

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Mac Feather — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 23:26:27 GMT

[quote user="Sandra Taylor RVN, MBVNA"]

You changed your name on here hun... sorry I never realised it was you... Aww am so sorry , I have pm'd you If you are still working where you said you were the last time we spoke, then I am close by

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J- defo take Sandra up on meeting up- it will do u the world of good. When u coming back up the rd?

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Sandra Taylor RVN, MBVNA — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 23:21:48 GMT

You changed your name on here hun... sorry I never realised it was you... Aww am so sorry , I have pm'd you If you are still working where you said you were the last time we spoke, then I am close by

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Mac Feather — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 23:13:53 GMT

J- would you like me to phone you?

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Sandra Taylor RVN, MBVNA — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 23:06:33 GMT

Hi Bailey, so sorry for your loss pm any of us if you want a chat

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Sal the 1st — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 23:03:14 GMT

pm sent

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Nick Shackleton — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 22:09:29 GMT

hey there

Really sorry that you are going through this currently. Will be thinking of you and hope things get better soon. Am sure there are people out there for when you are ready to talk to.

There are the support networks out there if you want to go down that route.

Alternatively, there are us guys here am sure anyone of us would give you the time for a chat, even if it's to talk on a completely unrelated topic.

And then there are your friends and family, which am sure they are currently helping you emotionally.

If you don't feel like talking now that's fine, talk when your ready.

Take care and thinking of you x x x

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Saskia Quinn — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 21:50:43 GMT

I am so saddened to hear you are not coping. You have a lot to deal with right now, but you have taken the first step in posting how you feel on here.

I remember being told by a counsellor a few years back, if we feel depressed or down, everything becomes a problem and a big deal. Everyday things which wouldnt normally annoy us when we are in top form, become really difficult to deal with.

I echo what has been said above regarding the Samaritans etc, there is help out there and Samarians are 24/7. Its probably easier to speak with a stranger about how you are feeling.

This is the link to the pet bereavement support service

http://www.bluecross.org.uk/web/site/AboutUs/PetBereavement/PBSSIntro.asp

Keep talking about how you feel and keep posting on here, we are a good bunch of listeners and hopefully can point you in the right direction as to where help is available.

Take care xxx

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BengalcatRVN — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 21:43:18 GMT

[quote user="Vicky SVN"]

As Bengal says, words are never enough....but we're all here for you to talk as much as you need to. xxx

[/quote]

We are but words on a screen, but in this we hope you find the words you need.

There are some truely amazing people/words on here, that no matter what, know what to say. Even I find some comfort in what they say. You feel you cannot talk to people, but talk to us, for we will listen and never judge, but offer words of wisdom and words to comfort, many virtual hugs and kisses. A shoulder to cry on, a bag to punch on, and at the end you will hopefullly know what comfort is. For the people here are turely awesome.

Hugs to you. xx

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Vicky RVN — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 21:37:10 GMT

As Bengal says, words are never enough....but we're all here for you to talk as much as you need to. xxx

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Mrs Dot Dot — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 21:29:45 GMT

Hiya... you sound like you are not in a very good place at the moment...... you've lost your dog... just accept that it's ok to be upset over him, for however long that takes, it's ok to cry for however long and whenever needed,

Is there someone you can talk to? either a friend or if you are not use to talking to others, sometimes talking to anonymous people can be easier.. some helplines are around.. pet bereavement (I know Saskia from here has talked about these before),

http://www.vetlife.org.uk/ Don't whether you have seen this website. Also the Samaritans as well.

To me it sounds like you need some support and friendship, whether that is thru cyberspace or down the phone or in otherways... and also to accept that you are having abit of a rough time at the moment.... feel free to PM me or anyone on here or try to find someone that you feel comfortable talking to ......

In the meantime to you, take care xx

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BengalcatRVN — Mon, 02 Aug 2010 21:13:07 GMT

HUGZZZZZZ to you
I think you need loads xxxxxxxxx

I've re-written this so much, but it never seems to say enough. :( I can never get the words out right.